Adventures at Home

went to girls camp 08' . got the shirt. decided that society as a whole is on a doward never ending slippery slope. also, knockin' the g's off of words and addin' apostraphies makes them gan'sta'. though not in all cases.
went to the zoo. all i got was a stinkin' mug. its rad though for mommy dearest (the plan is to become and stay her perfect child for time and all eternity). i admired the beauty of the exotic animals and wondered if they had been blessed like humans with a sense of awareness.
other than that i've kind of just been soaking in the city and making life altering decissions. for instnce i don't want to live in the city my whole life.
other than that no other interesting thoughts to blog about.
so there.

Ponderings

i sit here wondering "what the heck is wrong with me?" i had a sort of argument with my mother and older brother about my realtionship with said brother. it has NEVER been a good one. he thinks about himself before anyone and everyone else. and he says that it is human nature. that this world is about surviaval of the fitist and it is most important that he survive before anyone else. but my young mind asks what are we fighting each other to survive? what is it that my brother who does nothing all day is trying to survive?
the other thing that bothered me about our argument was that my brother called me rude and judgemental. which are two of the things about my personality that i really don't like. they are some of the worse things about myself but they surface when i put my guard up(which automatically happens in ny). i guess it just stings when one of the people i judge the most calls me out on it.
i'm working on my flaws but there are too many to work on at once and it doesnt help to have them tossed in my face. more than once.
so there. i'm judgemental and rude. all the time. its not okay but i'll work on it. i promise myself i would.