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It's Show and Tell

i finally uploaded some old pictures:

this is my good friend meddy, from high school. we went out to diner in chinatown. best night in NYC ever! Chinese for diner and cannolis for dessert. i love NYC and i love meddy. you can really see how mature we are.

this is from last year's trip to pocatello. my friend r here has more athletic ability in her pinkie than i have the power to think about.

this is a picture i took this past week. it was one of the most stressful days of my life. but i got to spontaneously hangout with my mom which we haven't done in forever. its a cool picture though.

this is from last year's trip to slc. i love this picture. my friend k, took it. fyi, im the one on the left.

okay, now it's your turn!

A Letter

dear 2010,

please don't suck. your pal 2009 was pretty good, but, you should strive to be better. try and reach your full potential, k?

thanks,
your new bff,
sam

Christmas

i wish i could blog about the "real meaning of christmas" as some of my fellow christians like to call it but, alas, christ was born in april.

however, this year, like the last, i spent it with some of my favorite people. they are fellow chocolate fiends, needles to say it was a great evening. filled with serious as well as light hearted conversation.

they have a young daughter who is about 2 years old. this year they have gone to great lengths for the whole "santa scheme". they set presents under the tree after she went to bed. they placed a thank you note (for cookies and milk) on top of a plate of cookie crumbs. they even left a glass with "milk residue". it was adorable.

while we set up her "bigger" presents (which included a tricycle and make shift kitchen, both cuter than any that i have ever seen) i had a moment.

in my family christmas wasn't a really big deal, for a lot of reasons. but, i never really knew what i was missing until today. though, the idea of this hoax at 20 years of age is a little silly, part of me thinks that it might have been nice to have something a little magical and inexplicable to believe in. so, in this magical moment, influenced by the spirit of christmas, i decided to add something to "the list of things that i may want in a future husband". i think it might be nice, for me and my future children (emphasis on future...distant future) to have someone who is captivated by christmas. there is a sort of magic that comes with it all and i think i would like to have that in my home. there is something to be said about the excitement it brings to parents to have a "good secret" to keep from their children. even these two most practical parents, had a twinkle in their eyes about the presents they set out for their lovely little girl. i don't have it, so i guess he will have to bring it.

i hope your day (no matter what day it is) is filled with magic, love, and light.

merry christmas.
s

Sigh...

i finally finished them. i made roman shades for this very nice interior designer lady. (there should be some sort of link there but i don't know that she has a website.)
it was really difficult for me for several reasons. first, i sew clothes. well, not really anymore, but that's what i learned to sew. these were ROMAN SHADES people. second, i don't really love sewing. i've always liked it but i don't love it. third, it was a process that magnified some of my greatest flaws.

i stressed so much on being so perfect about the whole thing. i tried to get every stitch just right. every time i looked at the fabric something cringed with the thought of time consuming attempts at perfection. this is why i stopped sewing things that had set deadlines. it all together, pulls me apart.

but now its all over. and i can breath. and get back to over thinking and stressing out about other stuff. i should have taken pictures, (i'm kind of a bonehead) hopefully she will email me some like she said she would.

oh and p.s. i'm going to chicago tomorrow (so excited!!) and i'm not even close to being packed, so far in fact that i haven't even pulled down my suitcase.

Help?

okay, so no real life update or anything. i've just got a little dilemma. i think i'm ready to get a new computer. this one has served me well. we've been through some tough times: i've done some cool research, and written some awesome essays and papers, but alas, old jefferson here is falling apart. it is time for a new one.

the problem is, i don't know anything about computers. (what 20 year old doesn't know computers? whatever, i don't tweet either. so there, i'm old and un-hip, who cares?) although, as usual i know what i don't want. i don't want another dell. sorry dell users nothing personal or really substantial. i simply don't want one. i also don't want a mac, i just don't care for them. i'm a pc. i also kind of feel like pop culture really worships mac and soon our ipods are going to turn on us and enlist our computers in their fight against the human race.

so, help me out if you can.

stay rad.

Looking In...

it's been a ruff couple days for me. i wish that there was one thing to pin point and blame for it so i can just move on, you know. it's a lot of stuff, but somehow i think that it all comes back to me. i think it all just comes back to my way of thinking and feeling. so in the midst of my disgruntledness, i've been trying to get back to me, to find what is going to give the essence of me something to smile about.

sunday it was to just get out of the house. not anywhere specific, to go out without an actual plan. i feel like sometimes i torture myself with this idea that if there is no actual purpose to go out, i won't do it. so, i went out. i got out at what ever train station i felt the urge to and walked for a pleasing amount of time...until i saw a homeless man peeing into a bottle then i went home.

thursday it was to take a little extra time at 34th street, without complaining about the crowd. went to school in that area for about 5 years, and i haven't really been there. i took time to think about high school; i don't regret any of it.

yesterday it was to go to luch with a friend, and laugh really loud in an almost empty restaurant (not because it was bad, but because it was between meals technically). she was going through tough stuff too, so we just talked and ate really good indian food. after lunch i went to the other side of town, because i felt like it not because i had to. i got some really cute rain booties.

today i will finally go to a movie alone. i've been wanting to try to go alone for a while and today it just worked out. speaking of which it's time to go.

do something for you today.